MATHS.

I hate maths.
I want to drop it.

And I am, if my mum says yes.

She has to say yes. No matter what. Or else I won't have the emotional support to actually drop it and may continue it until I die.

I told her this morning and she confronted me again when picking me up after school.
"Do you have to drop maths?"
"Did you even try hard in maths?"
"If you had problems last year why didn't you tell me so I could arrange a tutor?"
"Maths is important you know."

No.
No no NO.

I could have told her I'm dropping and not let her have a say in it.
But I wanted her opinion, or at least ask her to think about it; because I respect her.
I want her to have a say in my life. She has always let me off easy, so I doubt she knows anything about school or how much I hate it sometimes.

That doesn't matter though.
I don't want maths in my life.
I hope she lets me drop. Or else I'm gonna have a breakdown 'cause maths is such a shitty subject for me and I'll be forced to continue because I respect her wishes.

Funny. Forced to continue because I respect her.
I never knew respect went that far.

Sister & Caramel.

I did say I was going to blog more frequently. Though I doubt anyone knows at the moment :X

Firstly... My sister chucked a hissy PMS fit last night at like 2AM.

Sis:"What the fuck Nola?! Why the hell are you still up?! Go to fucking sleep already!"

Myself: "Errr... I can sleep whenever I want to dude. Not like I need a lot of sleep.."

Sis: "You have school! Fuck, don't you care about school?! It's late already!! Go to fucking bed."

Myself: "Woah man. Chill. What's wrong with you? I'm doing alright in school already. It's okay."

Sis: "JUST GO TO FUCKING SLEEP."

Myself: "... -turns off computer- Gee.. I was gonna sleep anyways.. You don't need to yell."

Then I went into the bathroom and when I walked back out my sister was full facing the toilet door.

Sis: "Hey man. Sorry for yelling at you. I was just pissed at you, but not you. It's late and you should've slept."

Myself: "...-thinking: WTF MAN-.... Er... Okay... I'm going to sleep now. Shut the lights when you're done."

And I just crawled into bed, thinking that was the angriest she has gotten towards me in like, months. CREEPY. SOOO CREEPY.. this is what PMS does to you. At least that's my excuse for her.

AND. INTRODUCING CARAMEL.


I LOVE YOU CARAMEL. ;___;
I'm not crazy, bishes. D;

He's dirty. With pen marks and dust.. He needs a shower badly.




And on a more recent note... I've been sleeping real late every night because of Harvest Moon. ;__; LOVE THAT GAME. OMG. D: I played it ages and ages ago and completed everything.. so now I just wanted to come back and play again. ;D //is such a nerd.


Urgh, I hate winters. But that's where I'm up to. Winters are so slow... I mine a lot to make money and mining takes so much time. Urgh.



That's all for now. (: <3
Nothing new.

Over.

It's alright. It's okay.
Everything's fine.

It's better than any other outcome at least.
He's fine. Or so the other one says.

It's over now. Isn't it?
...Damn it.

我们必须向前走...
他必须向前走.

忘记过去.

...Fuck.

I thought you'd be saying something more, something worthwhile, or an update of what you've been doing... Not 'goodbye'.

I didn't expect goodbye.

Fuck. Fuck you. It's not worth it.
Urgh. Screw you. I'm not going to admit it's my fault. It's not my fault.

aassdffghkjiii.

Shit. I hope you're okay.
In a way, I'm glad we stopped talking.

It would've killed me to see you like that.

Awh FUCK.

Hurstville CNY - Volunteer Work.

Alright. Like. Urgh. The weather was hell bad, it rained like mad and when it didn't rain the air was so humid and thick you could probably slice a sword through it.

So, had volunteer work yesterday @Hurstville for Chinese New Year Festival. Woke up at... Er... 6:30am? ;D Got there at around 7:30. Got our tags, red shirt and this really ugly.. BUT USEFUL.. Green fisherman hat.


Once we were explained our duties blahblahblah it started heavy duty raining and when we were like 'fuck' they revealed to us PONCHOS TO WEAR.... Yay. :'D Notrly. Plastic.. Thingies.. That... Were hot... and strange.. and something THAT THE WIND LIKED BLOWING.

I think I'll stop posting so many pictures soon. Urghhhhhhhh. They take too much time. ): And plus, it takes effort too. D; So it'll be quick and short from now on. (:

Okay, so, continuing... All of us went around giving program booklets to people of the community--seriously does not surprise me how rude some asians are... and how nice some of them are. WEIRD MUCH. I handed this guy a program and although he looked like he was going to give it back to me he soon walked off. Then, I was informed by another member of my group that the man walked up to him and gave back the program saying in Chinese '...I don't want to hold this, it's annoying'

WTF BRO. TAKE THE DAMN BOOK FILLED WITH ASIAN COUPONS AND GO AWAY. GEE.

Bleck. The rest of the day was fruitless and nothing really happened.. Although we did frequently got wet and I shielded most of it by wearing my poncho and the fugly green hat--looked absolutely GAY. Whateverrr.

.. Hugeeeeeee hell unexpected accident happened and a stage guy doing the dragon dance fell from a pole 5m from the ground. He didn't take the brunt of the fall however, because he landed on a girl that was on the crew also but only watching. Ouch much. That is what I call being innocent. THIS is where us volunteers came in. We were to act as a man-wall to block any nosyidiots who wanted to see the fallen and hurt. I swear, people are really annoying. Not like they could help or anything and all they like to do is STARE. The idiots even took their umbrellas out under the rain to KEEP STARING. Bastards. The poor guy and girl. ):

God. You're taught how to FALL but you aren't taught what to do if someone falls on YOU.

It started raining slightly so a man took a huge gray plastic sheet and told us to hold it up to cover the people who got hurt. So we literally became a wall to hold up the "roof". Exactly as we stood it started RAINING HARD, we were all half soaked by the rain and when it was requested that we needed to lift the make shift roof higher; we got soaked completely. It was okay, I think, because for the first time yesterday I felt like I was doing something worthwhile.

About 45minutes later they were well packaged and sent off in the ambulance to the hospital. (:
While most of us were soaked... Our hair dripping and our volunteer shirt shades darker than usual. It was truly an OTL; sight.





There were more a bit more people but they had to leave half way during the day.
That's our volunteer team for this year! (:

New Blog Layout.

So I finally kicked my ass and revamped my blog.

..But why in the hell did I do it 3 days before school knowing I have a shit load of work to do? Yep. My procrastination is kicking in. Seriously. Screw this. FML isn't enough. D:

Maybe from now on I'll just rant on this blog...
Nah. It'll be a mixture of everything I suppose. Well. I like the layout of my blog now, lifts my spirit somewhat since I took the pictures as well. Please let 2010 to be a good year.

No more screwy crap like the end of last year. Makes me wanna punch something.
Lets all hope we get what we want this year, if not, the closest thing.